If you ever thought that self-hate was confined to any particular gender or ethnic group, you’re wrong. Julie Chen, an anchor and producer for CBS, went onto “The Talk” to share something that might have made a lot of people shriek. She said that she had big problems with looking so Asian, and decided that getting a bunch of surgery might make it all better.
“My secret dates back to – my heart is racing – it dates back to when I was 25 years old and I was working as a local news reporter in Dayton, Ohio.”
“So, I asked my news director… over the holidays if anchors want to take vacations, could I fill in? And he said, ‘You will never be on this anchor desk, because you’re Chinese.’ He said ‘Let’s face it Julie, how relatable are you to our community? How big of an Asian community do we have in Dayton? On top of that because of your Asian eyes, I’ve noticed that when you’re on camera, you look disinterested and bored.’
“So, what am I supposed to say to my boss? I wanted to cry right then and there. It felt like a dagger in my heart, because all of my life I wanted to be a network anchor.”
After meeting with an agent, Julie was told that she could not get representation unless she got surgery to make herself look less Asian. She made the ultimate sacrifice, re-defining the term “sellout” for those who find such a choice to be repulsive.
Chen says that she asked herself, “Did I give in to ‘the man’?”
It appears that she did.
Chen later came back and said that her parents were proud of her for her on-air confession. We’re proud of you too for confessing, but not proud of you for somehow thinking that you did the right thing. Is it worth denying who you are in order to fit in for a little fame and fortune? Probably not. When the lights go out and the money stops rolling in, that’s when you realize that you gave up everything for a racist illusion.